search
top
Currently Browsing: Uncategorized

The Vestibulitis Diary – Part 19: Finale

One Year After Surgery I hadn’t written about the pain for a long time. Like a sad memory, I tried to repress it, tuck it away in the back corner of my mind. People sometimes ask if the surgery killed the pain, and whether or not I would suggest surgery to others. The surgery was both easier and harder than I had thought. It was easier because my Dr. did a modified vestibulectomy which took out just... read more

The Vestibulitis Diary – Part 18: Out of Sync

Day 200 After Surgery 6 months out from the Vestibulectomy surgery and things are still not completely fine. I had recovered a lot. There was a lot of residual sensitivity that faded. The stitches are gone. The stress induced hematomas went away. I was very thankful to have all those painful things gone. But now is my battle against scar tissue. Before there had been constant burning pain, where even a... read more

The Vestibulitis Diary – Part 17: If Only

Day 95 After Surgery We tried sex for the first time after the surgery. Apparently a little under three months was just too soon. It hurt as bad or worse before the surgery. Admittedly I was slack on the physical therapy and daunted by a big hematoma on the incision line that would flare up and be gone in a matter of hours (being fairly painful in the interim). Needless to say, I was saddened. It was one... read more

The Vestibulitis Diary – Part 16: Inflamed

Day 20 After Surgery Tuesday was bad. It was exceptionally hard to go to work. My skin was inflamed right near the surgery area. It all left me feeling really down, I began to wonder if I would ever feel good again. If one listens too much to the majority of catastrophic thinking on VVS boards, one wouldn’t be too sure of a major cure anyway. There were hours this day where the inflammation was so... read more

The Vestibulitis Diary – Part 15: Spent

Day 19 After Surgery Going to work while recovering has just been exhausting. I do three 10 hour days, which isn’t much, but when it is one of those days, I am spent. Next entry: Inflamed This is the story of Arashi, visual artist, writer and sex-positive vestibulitis patient and her surgical choice to heal her condition.... read more

The Vestibulitis Diary – Part 14: Post Op Healing

Day 12 After Surgery I went to my Dr’s for a post op on Monday, the day this was taken. Things were not all I had been hoping for. People would ask me if I was fixed and I would tell them that I simply could not tell as the stitches are in the exact same place as the pain, so it is really hard to tell. This causes an incredible amount of anxiety in me because I just went through what should be one... read more

The Vestibulitis Diary – Part 13: Like a Song

Day 6 After Surgery This picture is perfect for recovery. The chorus to The Vapors’ song “Turning Japanese” “no sex” “no drugs” “no wine” “no women”   Next entry: Post Op Healing This is the story of Arashi, visual artist, writer and sex-positive vestibulitis patient and her surgical choice to heal her... read more

The Vestibulitis Diary – Part 12: Recovery – Pills and Peas

Day 1 After Surgery I completely forgot of my mild fear of vulnerability and my hate for being forced unconscious (never fainted to this day) because my Dr. held my hand while I was drifting away. I woke up in a haze, looked around and saw that I was in another partition room. I had been out for about two hours, which was a lot longer than I had thought. (I rounded down from 1.5 hours, my body rounded up)... read more

The Vestibulitis Diary: Part 11 – Surgery

D-Day  Surgery.   Next entry: 1 Day After Surgery – Recovery: Peas & Pills This is the story of Arashi, visual artist, writer and sex-positive vestibulitis patient and her surgical choice to heal her... read more

The Vestibulitis Diary – Part 10: D-Day

Pre-Op I woke up at 5. I was supposed to wake up at 6 but the worry about oversleeping woke me early and kept me awake. My parents drove me to the hospital on top of the hill. We parked and walked to the pre-admission testing room. It was 7:15 and I was 15 minutes early. We thumbed through magazines and joked to bide time. Soon I was called to go to the pre-op area. There weren’t separate rooms as... read more

The Vestibulitis Diary – Part 9: The Night Before

One Day Before Surgery The Night before the surgery, with visions of scalpels dancing through my head. The only anxiety I felt about the whole situation was thinking that there wasn’t enough time to get everything done. I was throwing fresh sheets on the bed and washing the pajamas that I was planning to wear for the next 3 days straight at midnight the night before. There is no really good aftercare... read more

The Vestibulitis Diary – Part 8: Saying Goodbye

2 Days Before Surgery On an online forum discussing sex for people with disabilities, someone once asked, “What do you get out of your disability?” It seems a strange question to ask because one usually thinks of disabilities in wholly negative terms. But really it isn’t, life is more than the pain one has to deal with, and coping mechanisms extend further than what drugs to take and how many hours of... read more

« Previous Entries

top